So I met a guy on biggercity, which is an evil website and I should have learned by now that nothing good can ever come of it.
We were talking online and he wanted to meet me so I agreed to hang out for a few hours after work. I told him I couldn’t stay out late because I had work in the morning and I have my particular nightly get-ready-for-bed rituals that take up pretty much all of my time from 8:00-10:00 pm.
He seemed ok with that so we wakled around his hometown and had gelato, and I talked for a long time abuot comics without paying any attention to if he was listening or not.
Then he wanted me to come back to his apartment and I told him I’d rather not and I should get going home as it was late. Suddenly he started getting really pleading and begging and I eventually aggreed to come see him to his apartment. Once there he got really grabby and pushy and I kept getting more and more uncomfortable. Every time I told him I wanted him to stop and that I needed to go home he’d go back to begging and bargaining – lots of “just one kiss, please” talk.
The more uncomfortable I got the more forceful he became until he literally grabbed my hand, pulled it down and ordered me to jerk off in front of him.
It was the most shameful and humiliated I’ve felt in my entire life and made me feel quasi-raped.
I’m not even sure how to process it right now and when I tried to confront him about it he acted like it was no big deal and blamed me. I’ve got therapy on tuesday and I plan on spending the whole session talking just about that.
Freedumbring 